Sorry for not being able to visit blogs, school has me incredibly busy. There may be some time this weekend, but it's likely not going to be until after finals are over. Today, eye found out something that affects me horribly. Apparently, the policy regarding being able to continue school has changed. M'eye first two semesters here, eye completely let myself fuck up. So, now this school's GPA is .45. At first, eye was told at the beginning of the semester that as long as eye passed all the classes with at least Cs, eye would be able to get financial aid continued next semester. Eye can do that just fine. Now, this has changed. They want me to have a cumulative university GPA of 2.0. Even getting a 4.0 this semsester would not accomplish this. They will NOT count m'eye previous school's GPA of 3.25 into their calculations to determine the GPA calculation. Eye think this is bullshit. If eye did pretty well during a couple years of school, then fuck up a year of it after moving, then do ok in full time school (C or better), eye think that proves that eye'm not out to fuck up anymore and that eye am making an effort to correct bad school habits. So, tomorrow begins the lovely appeal process so that it can be completed before school begins January 17th. Eye already have a note from m'eye previous therapist that eye thought eye would have to use for THIS semester. Eye'm going to check tomorrow to see if passing this semester and doing well the next will bring me up to par at the end of next semester. (Eye'm expecting an unfortunate current semester average of 2.5, really awesome from not knowing eye was in school the first two weeks, then later almost a week of sleeping past early classes, for which the assignments/tests cannot be made up. Eye'm not really complaining about that, it's just a fact. Being ill is an excuse. Turning off the alarm for "5 more minutes of sleep" is not. Next semester eye can get a semester average of between 3.0-4.0 for sure, considering this semester's classes include most of the hardest eye will have to take for a bachelor's degree.) Going through an appeal every semester for a number of semesters does not sound very fun, so hopefully just one will do it. It takes up to a month, and break is coming up, so that period of time might not count, or maybe just around the actual holidays. What's unfortunate is that until the appeal goes through, the classes won't be paid for, which means they will not be "held" for me. Eye may end up having to pick basically just whatever's leftover and isn't full, and HOPE that the classes are all ones that are needed for m'eye degree. So, if eye wasn't freaked out enough as it is, this is doing it for sure.
By the way, if having to go to school for so many damn years for just a bachelor's seems odd to you, eye have always taken the minimum number requirement to count as "full time," which is 12 credits (4 classes.) In order to graduate in exactly four years, one has to either pay for summer school, or take 15-18 credits per semester. In addition, most of the classes eye took at the previous community college out of state did NOT transfer as required classes, just random electives, even though most of them definitely were not.
I went to a tech school, then a couple of JR colleges for a few semesters before I went to UCSB for my degree and in my experience some schools will bend over backwards to help you get financial aid and others try to make it as hard as possible! Arseholes anyway! Here you are doing something that is extremely hard and when you add the H into the mix (heh) it gets even harder yet they try to complicate things even more by changing their policies on cumulative GPAs and all that rot! It's a sad. sad situation when a junkie can't even catch a break at work (me) and at school (you)...I need another shot after reading that!
ReplyDeleteDo you know what pisses me off about uni degrees is that you're supposed to go there to broaden your mind, to indulge in experiences you wouldn't otherwise have ~ intellectual experiences as well as the obvious sex/drugs/rock n roll type ones. But to get the best degree, you have to be dead conservative in your choice of modules. Only going for stuff you know you're gonna score really high in.
ReplyDeleteAre you getting marked on coursework essays? I know that's more constantly stressful but I always considered the idea of conferring a degree on one's performance in final exams alone extremely unfair. I did shit in my A Levels (you take 3 subjects age 18) I got a full grade lower in everything than predicted and that was the beginning of the end for me. Depression. Hash smoking and other drug experimentation blah blah blah.
With me the heroin never came until I was 28 years old by the way! And I know addicts who never touched it until they were older still. Generally speaking the older the person was when they got a habit, the more maturity they had during their addiction as heroin does in some odd way stop you growing. Note I say in SOME way, not in every way. I think it comes from living life anaesthetized rather than facing your own feelings without the rough edges planed off by opiates.... something to do with that, perhaps....................
O wow Noah's back in the land of the blogging...
ReplyDeleteWishing you a very merry one and a fantastical 2012!
ReplyDeleteSurprise, surprise, the junkie can't make it in school. And by the way, a 2.5 is not "awsemoe."
ReplyDeleteHappy Holidays Lovey . . . Hope you ok . . I read somewhere (?) Thingy had left you. Hope all is good with you (O yeah it was at Noahs I read that) You've not posted for ages. I Used to look forward to your posts. Hope you come back soon. Take care. With love Di x
ReplyDeleteHappy New Year if you still reading here . . . Have a good 'un x
ReplyDeleteYeah, well even pre-dope life for me has been a lot of "uh-ohs" and things coming together at the last possible second.
ReplyDeleteYay Gledwood, yeah eye'm now taking classes according to "What's needed for the degree program." Grades are based off quizzes, tests, mid-term and final exams, homework, and sometimes essays.
ReplyDeleteFirst trying heroin for me - 21. Semi-regular use- a few months before 25, and full-on, about a month and a half before turning 26. But sometimes you see these kids who are on before turning 18. Eye probably would have TRIED it that early, given the chance, but become addicted? Not likely - nosy intrusive parents and didn't have own job at the time, plus in high school was "strict" with drug use - three times a month only. Haha, eye put numbers 1-31 on pieves of folded paper, dropped them in a bowl and picked three, and those were the days eye could get high - pain pills, amphetamines, or LSD. How cute.
Happy new year for you too, and VERY glad the holidays are over, they were SHITTY for me.
"Really awesome" was sarcasm, maybe should've put the quotes around it? And regardless eye ended up with 3 Bs and an A, so did decently.
ReplyDeleteYAY thanks Di, alive and finally "well" haha. Angel leaves for weeks for the holidays Every year, and the Dope man closes on holidays (Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years) too, not that eye had tons of cash to spare, anyway. :) :) :) YAY eye'm going to get caught up on everyone's blogs properly, have been reading here and there every week or two, but nothing in its entirety.
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